Why is there no reassurance within?
Just A Dream
Take me away.
Take me to a place where I can hear to beauty,
A place where I can feel the nature,
When the Mornings are crisp but the coffee is hot.
A beautiful view to let all my anxieties away into…
I want to wander through the trees and listen to the birds chiming in harmony.
Why care about everything else?
Why do all of ‘them’ matter?
Wake up.
Take a reality check.
Find peace in yourself and your surroundings, put your toes in the stream and let your problems float away.
I need a place where i can finally breathe.
It’s Just Your Phone
“Why do you cry when you look at me?”
“But then on others you laugh.”
Its dark again.. I’m put away
I cry for you from this dark hole, but you just turn me off.
Why is that?
“Yay, light!”
I’m so happy to see you, but you give me a quick look and I’m back in that dark place.
Crying, and crying just begging to feel wanted, wanting to feel useful.
Yet, all you do is silence my cries.
You finally hold me, but then moments later you’re screaming, or you’re crying,
Do I only make you that way?
I’m in that dark place again.
Suddenly, I feel your hand grip me,
But it’s still dark…
I start crying for you,
You answer with a loud cry followed by, “I’m done,”
Then in a flash I was tumbling into the river only to lose sight and seize.
You may try and soak my wounds but I’ll never be the same again.
Sorry
“I’m sorry”
The words of a lost soul,
Just waiting to be found.
Noticed
Doesn’t it seem so pointless to try so hard for something that means nothing to you?
What if you’re forced to learn it?
Just believe there is a reason for it, even if it means you’re lying to yourself, force yourself to believe its useful and always put your best into it because even when it may feel un-noticed, someone always sees.
You never go un-noticed.
You can’t take credit for my hard work.
Things bloom and grow out of nowhere.
That place that you thought everything was brittle and dead, is now flourishing with the most beautiful flowers.
All of the sudden things have been nourished and loved .
But what if you decided to leave when things seemed to be dead and brittle? Can you just come back and take credit for all the hard work thats been done?
No.
You can’t just leave for the bad and come back expecting to see the good.
“An analogy on my life.”
Fixated
So many fixations for the little things,
fixations on death as well as afterlife.
What are the stages we may or may not go through after death.
What if life never truly ends?
Do you just die and come right back?
Fixed on believing that after this life you will move on to something better,
Something without all of the pain and growing.
You’ll go here if you’ve worked hard and made your dreams a reality.
Maybe that’s why no one truly says what happens after we die.
maybe “they know”
Not everyone is treated fairly, if you haven’t completed what you’re supposed to in your first life then maybe you’ll end up back here again.
I find this is why we as humans should always try our best, because you never know whats coming.
Trying your best may just be enough to succeed.
Comfort
Never get too comfortable where you are.
Things are always going to be changing and turning and switching to every direction that you never thought that things would go.
Never expect perfection, always aim to get better.
Once you may think things are settling is when they will flip the most. Those days where you feel it’s impossible to meet someone new or create a friendship because you’re so used to everyone around you.
Eventually some of those people will fade away into life and if you stay where you are you will get stuck alone instead of growing and changing with the human race. Change is good.
Don’t ever think that you will always be stuck where you are because you won’t, things are going to change.
Grow, Prosper, and Live.
Just Keep Going.
It is very weird being the person who wants to fit in and get along with everybody but also being the type of person who wants the proper people in their life.
Wanting to try and help everyone while still helping yourself is impossible no matter how bad you want to do it.
You can’t fix everybody and thats such a hard thing to learn and an even harder thing to actually follow.
Trying to pick who is going to be a positive or negative influence on your life is hard, and all you can truly do is follow what you think is best and just hope that it works out.
Not everything will work out like you want it too, frankly most things don’t turn out the way you thought they would. Sometimes they end up even better then you ever thought, or it could come crashing down on you.
There is no true way of knowing.
Put faith in yourself and just keep going!
Even when things seem to take a complete wrong turn, never try and go back, just follow your path and new things will always arise.
This is life.
This is what everyone should know.
Ashes.
Ashes to ashes,
nicotine runs through your veins.
Ashes to ashes,
another bowl smoked.
Ashes, so many ashes!
Our love was like a wildfire, never seems like the flame will go out.
Until everything turns to ashes.
Burnt into rubbish and to be left in ancient history.
The Things You Can Never Say 